stressed to the max!!!!!!!!!!

Hello dear online friends.
I am here in the basement at my parents house trying to de-stress. I am about to pull all my hair out. I hate getting so upset and so frustrated. I feel like a world class failure as a Mommy. Or should I say, a failure as a GOOD Mommy. E is crabbing me out big time lately. She is always naughty and never listens. I would love to be raising a well rounded good natured precious little girl and instead, it seems I am raising Satan's spawn. Could be considering she is her daddy's girl. Just kidding dear hubby. Anyway, I am at the end of my rope. And what's worse is that there seems to be no end in sight of her awful behavior and next week I start babysitting for one of my best friends and her baby is 3 months old. UGH!!!!!!! I feel so determined to get this in control and feel so helpless it is driving me batty. Well, other than that stress, life it good. We are all healthy and for the most part happy. I am blessed to have the family and friends that I do. I really do feel blessed in that sense. It is still flippin' cold out and only got up to like 8 degrees yesterday and negative something last night. I just don't have much to write about that is interesting I guess. Maybe I should stop doing this. But it helps to vent. I am going to go sulk now.
Until next time and maybe a better day!!!!!!!!!!!!!

E's Birthday party

Well, we had E's birthday party last night and it was a hit. E was excited and anxious all day to have her princess birthday party. A lot of friends came and family too. It was so much fun for us as well as for her. She got some great gifts and to us, it was great just to be surrounded by friends and family. I made my first birthday cake (other than sheet cake). I made a princess cake and everyone said it looked and tasted great. I was kinda impressed that it didn't flop. So, now I have to figure out what to make for Bubba's cake in April. We'll see. Probably The Little Mermaid. She is obsessed with her. E is getting so big. I watched her video of when she was born today. Three years have flown by. I remember the excitement and anticipation of having my first baby. We tried for 4 years and it was such a blessing. I still can't believe how blessed we are sometimes. God is so good! Well, I will try to get some pictures soon on here. We'll see. Hope this finds everyone doing well.

Happy Valentine's Day!

It was another blustery day in Nebraska!!! Windy, snowy and very cold. I made heart shaped blueberry pancakes (food colored pink) and heart shaped sausage patties for breakfast for the girls. They loved it. I am so corny!!! I would have made heart shaped meatloaf if we hadn't just had it a few days ago. (the plain loaf shape)
ANYWAY, not much going on with us other than the stresses of having a stubborn 3 year old who feels the world revolves around her and thinks SHE is the boss of everything. Heaven help me. I never knew I could be so crabby at someone I love so much. She is driving me up a freakin' wall. So, I am finding sanctuary in my parents basement at the moment. Gotta go home soon and help the hubby put the tazmanian devil to bed. Ah parenthood. Such joy! Happy Valentine's Day!!

pics

Yup, the top picture below is of me, E. and Bubba last summer. The middle picture is of my Mom and Dad and the bottom picture is of the shoreline on the lake. I LOVE that place. It is my heaven on Earth.

I think this is a pic of me and the girls last summer and some pics from Torch Lake in Michigan that my Dad took .

family life

Well, I have been catching up with my cousin lately. I used to write her every week when I was in High School. She is a year younger than me. We went our separate ways in '92 and it has been AGES since we've written or talked. I love her to pieces and she is so cool. She has a sweet hubby and 2 adorable little girls and I am stoked to be in touch with her again. The older you get the more you realize how important family is. I have realized this for some time, but sometimes it is hard to get along with some people you are related to....i.e. my older brother. I will never understand his way of thinking or NOT thinking in my opinion, but he is my brother and I love him.
My husband's Grandmother is ailing and it kills me that they live in Tennessee and we are in Nebraska. So far away. I would love to be there for his Grandpa, to keep him company and even just cook him dinner. Don't forget to love your loved ones and take time to let them know it.
Until next time.
Stace