trying times

I am having trying times I suppose. It seems I go through a day where I just feel like I don't do any good to or for anyone. What is God's purpose for my life? I feel like most of the time I live for my kids and nothing else. I want nothing more than for them to grow up secure, smart, determined and unbending in a strong faith in God. I want them to look back on their childhood with fond memories and to know that they are and were loved in every thing I did. I don't want them to think their Mom was a raging, crabby lunatic. That is how I feel lately. Hormones? I always say I wouldn't have kids if not for their father. So I have to make sure to make time for him and devote myself to him as I do my kids, even more so. He is a remarkable man and I am blessed to have him. But my children NEED me like he doesn't. So, They seem more important? It's tough. Just thinking on the computer I guess. God has blessed me in so many ways. Much more than I deserve. I feel so incredibly fortunate and blessed. It is easy to get wrapped in life's struggles I suppose. I love my girls so much and am so happy to be able to stay home with them. I don't know how Mom's go to work. I have the utmost respect for Mom's out there working. Man, are they strong!!!!!!!!!!!! Must run for now and tuck my punkies in to bed. Love your children and let them know it!!!!!!!!!!!